Many things have changed in our lives in the last six months. Many now know that I am battling liver failure. It sucks, and that's about all you can say. Don't ask me how I feel, I feel like crap. Do you really care? No, and I don't blame you. I'm sick of listening to myself say "I don't feel good". However, I will tell you 5 ways I do feel.
1. I feel ROGUE.
My hair is SHORT and DARK. I went to my normal hairdresser, who moved btw, dang her to get my normal boring color and cut. When I got there, I went rogue. I swear if Steve hadn't been there, I'd have been BALD looking for a wig. That is my next step, people! My hair use to actually do something, but it has apparently taken a vacay...wish I could go with it!
2.I feel RIDICULOUS.
I cry. A LOT. If you don't believe me, ask poor Steve. The man is a saint!! I cry at home, at work, at church, in the store. My crying is not discriminatory, and if I am with you when I start crying, don't ask. I can't tell you what's wrong anyway.
3. I feel REBELLIOUS.
I am MEAN. Not at work, of course! I work with the best students ever. They actually make me laugh and smile.....a welcome change to the
4.I feel RIMY.
I'm COLD. Remember when I would be pouring sweat with the least little heat? No more....if I could have gotten my hands on a parka made for the Alaskan frontier today, I would have had it on ALL day at work. Tomorrow, I am going prepared.
5.Lastly, I'm at PEACE. This is who I am now. I can't change it. I know it is cliche, but one that I truly believe...God is in control. I don't know what the future holds for me, but neither do you. I may be sick, but I know that I rest in the hands of the Almighty. I hope you do.
And there is the real reason for my blog title. Quiet Rest...it's what I find in Him. He gently reminds me day to day that He is with me; He is the great physician; He is my Father. He wants to bring me no harm, and I, too want to do the same for Him.
May Your faithful love rest on us, Yahweh, for we put our hope in You. Ps. 33:22